Irony

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Last week I went to my first prenatal yoga class and had to fill out a waiver and make note of any health issues, etc., including this baby’s due date. There was also a section that asked how many pregnancies & deliveries we have had. It was the first time I’ve had to “mention” my miscarriage that I had in July, and ironically enough, I just remembered that if I didn’t miscarry I would’ve been due this past weekend, on March 7.

Just a random, sobering thought for today.

I tend to forget push that experience to the deep and dark corners of my brain and not think about it a lot, but then again I have been showing signs of subconscious paranoia during this pregnancy. I check the toilet paper after I go to the bathroom for any specks of red, a habit that I don’t even notice I’m doing half the time. Every cramp now has me wonder.

I know everything is just fine this time around – at least for now. If having a miscarriage has taught me anything, it’s that nothing in life in guaranteed. Shit happens, both bad and good, and we’re forced to adjust to whatever is thrown our way. Like that waiver; nothing like a little reminder saying, “Hey, remember that one time you were pregnant but your body went, ‘Nooooope!’?” to really put things in perspective for you.

I know I’ll never 100% forget about what happened last summer, but I can at least try my very best not to dwell on it. It’s tough when it’s brought up unexpectedly, but that’s life – full of the unexpected.

 

Hello, Monday

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I’ll be completely honest – I was actually looking forward to waking up this morning. The Daylight Savings change kicked my butt yesterday, and since today is my first Monday off since January, I welcomed this morning with open arms!

I finished my contract at the university on Friday, so today marks the start of getting things back to normal. No more 6 a.m. alarm clocks! No more rushing to get Isla fed, dressed and out the door! I can now go back to being a stay-at-home mom, something that I now realize that I actually enjoyed. I missed Isla’s antics – both the hilarious and the hair-pulling ones. I get to take in a lot more of this every morning:Sunrises

Working for the past 9 weeks has been good; Kyle and I have managed to pay off a good chunk of our new (to us) truck and at the rate we’re going, we should hopefully have it paid by the end of the year. Working did, however, have some negative effects.

Isla regressed a little bit in the potty training, and me heading back to work definitely had something to do with it. She went from lazy mornings to “get up and go” ones, we cut out her afternoon nap (which needed to be done anyway), and the rules she had to follow were always changing – Grandma’s House rules are always the best ones, afterall.

I’m taking this first week of “Back to Normalcy” to do just that – to not do anything too outgoing, but to instead just get things back to normal. I’ve gone back to handing out treats for potty time success. We had a wonderfully warm weekend and Isla was a star, so I’m hoping I can keep it going.

I really do appreciate going back to work, don’t get me wrong, but I think that perhaps just for now, being a working mom just isn’t for me. I’ll eventually go back to hating Mondays, but for today, I’m welcoming it with open arms.

Pregnancy 2.0: 24 weeks

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24 Weeks

Size of baby: About the size of a garden eggplant, according to the Ovia pregnancy app.

Feeling: I’ve been feeling kind of gross lately (i.e., gassy), and I’m just going to blame it on Baby Girl growing and shoving my insides around to accommodate herself. I’ve also been fighting a bit of a cold that I caught from Isla, so really, I’ve been a hot mess.

Craving: Orange juice and hummus. I satisfied the OJ craving with some clementines, and bought hummus at the store the other day and have been eating it with anything that’s dippable as a snack.

Other: We’re also pretty certain on the baby’s name! Kyle and I are still trying to decide on a middle name, but the first name is more or less a sure thing :) Like with Isla, we’re not telling anyone what the name is until she’s born, but you can have fun guessing if you want! I also start prenatal yoga tomorrow, so I’m really looking forward to that!