Passive Aggressive

New Year’s always seems to be a time for moral dilemmas with parties and get together coming at you from every direction.

Usually I opt for staying at home and celebrating with a few close friends. I’ve done so for years now, so when people ask me to come out with them, I’ll tell them that I’m just going to stay home. I don’t leave people hanging and waiting for my answer.

I don’ t like knowing that I’m someone’s back-up plan if their “better” plans fall through. If you don’t want to come over because you’d rather go to the bar or rowdy house party, tell me that. I really think it’s rude when someone has told you they would come over but change their minds for something better in their eyes.

Other than people dicking around with decision making, I’m looking forward to having a nice little gathering at home. We’re going to play boardgames and have drinks. It should be delightful :)

Do you have any plans for New Years? What are your thoughts on people who leave you hanging until the last minute or ditch you for better plans?

Quiet Time

It’s interesting when you’re home by yourself and you realize how much quieter things are.

Kyle’s away for the evening, visiting his dad and grandma in our hometown and while my roommate is home, things are awfully quiet without Kyle here.

Usually the television is on some random channel or a video game is being played, but when Kyle’s not here, you could probably hear a pin drop. He gets anxious almost when it’s too silent in the house and there’s always some sort of background noise, so when I’m by myself I like to just listen to the whirl of my laptop and hear my dogs snore.

Of course, when I’m by myself I always get paranoid that someone is going to attack me in the middle of the night, but thanks to my “alert” dogs (they wouldn’t hurt anyone, only bark to let me know if someone’s here) and my secret ninja skills, I’m pretty sure it wouldn’t happen.

Anyway, it’s calming, sitting here in the piece and quiet of things. I wonder if I’m weird for just shutting everything down and letting the thoughts in my head process for once. I would imagine not; I mean, who could live with constant noise? I suppose some people could.

The List

The year is coming to an end and while I’m awful at keeping to resolutions, I did learn many things.
There was a popular Note theme on Facebook this year where people listed 25 things that their friends may not know about them, such as weird quirks or family history.
Instead of doing that on here, I’m going to attempt to list 25 things I’ve learned in the past year:
1) While it was stressful at first, moving in with Kyle was the decision I’ve made. We feel more grown up and it’s helped make our relationship stronger.
2) Cooking a roast isn’t as hard as I thought it was going to be. Next challenge: A turkey! Maybe next Thanksgiving …
3) Being done school is the most amazing feeling in the world …
4) … but the stress of trying to find a related job isn’t so amazing.
5) Shopping for houses is also stressful, especially when you first need a down payment and housing prices are high. I’ve learned to broaden my desired areas to live in because a lot of areas are out of our budget.
6) It’s been really hard for me to get my butt to the gym and get a good workout in. I’d really like to go three times a week but my body disagrees. Twice a week seems to be my usual thing.
7) Budgeting and giving my self an allowance has worked wonders, so I really need to get back on track. I take $40 out of my paycheck and make it last two weeks. It’s hard, but I tend to have back spending habits. Kyle hides my debit card and I only use my credit card for emergencies. Some people don’t think it’s right that he hides it, but I know it’s for the best and I’m okay with it, which is all that should matter.
8) Twitter isn’t as evil as I thought it was.
9) Living in a house without air conditioning is horrible and having a pool in the backyard doesn’t help.
10) Watching people search for parking spots at Costco during the Christmas shopping season is hilarious.
11) Not being engaged after seven years is okay because we have bigger priorities we want to fulfill first. (See #5)
12) I found that I don’t enjoy going to weddings or reading about people planning them because it makes me jealous that I don’t have one to plan of my own. (But again, see #11)
13) Running is an amazing way to make my anxiety attacks go away. They’re refreshing and when I take my dog she benefits too!
14) I love my friends and hanging out but I really appreciate my “alone” time.
15) Mac computers aren’t so bad after all (except when they’re running on an old OS).
16) You can’t throw up in public gracefully.
17) Copy editing is harder than it seems, especially when it’s your own work.
18) The North Shore businesses have a whole different attitude than Downtown businesses.
19) There is no comfortable way to pee in the woods.
20) It’s really hard keeping track of everything I have to do at work plus several things other people have to do all at the same time.
21) Deleting people I never talked to in high school off my Facebook is okay.
22) Mice are very tricky creatures and shouldn’t be underestimated.
23) Two large dogs poop more than you could imagine.
24) Performing world-class cannonballs into the pool is a sure-fire way to lose your bathing suit top.
25) I am perfectly happy with where my live is headed and I wouldn’t change a single thing about the past year.