Life’s Little Adjustments

I’m alive. Tired, but alive.
It’s been a whirlwind for the past week and a bit as Kyle and I settle into parenthood. We’re adjusting to a new type of normal, consisting of him waking up in the middle of the night and wondering what part of the house I’ve fallen asleep in, me falling alseep while nursing, and trying to decide if sleep or showering is more important.
I think Isla is finally starting to figure out a schedule. Or maybe that’s just wishful thinking on my part. Monday night was so far, the best night thus far. We (Isla and I) slept for two-three hours, woke up to be fed and changed for one hour, and went back down for another couple hours or so.
The biggest challenge Kyle and I thought we’d face was him going back to work on Sunday. Luckily, my mom came over for the day to lend a hand and give me a break when needed.
I actually don’t think I held Isla other than to nurse her all day! I’m forever grateful for all the help my mom has provided. Having her only a couple minutes away has been fabulous; I don’t know what I’d do withour her.
Monday was relatively decent as my first day being home alone with her. We hung out all day and I even managed to shower AND make dinner. Go me! I’m developing my supermom powers already.
This new normal of ours seems to be working out well. Sure, Kyle and I are both still just in amazement that we’ve brought this amazing little person into the world. Who would’ve thought something so little could bring so much big change?

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I love this little girl so much.

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The Birth Story, Part 2

Read Part 1 here

Thursday, June 28:

So, I was finally admitted to labour and delivery for what I hoped would be the last time. If I was going to be sent home again I was going to be devastated. Alas, I was not. I worked through the contractions for as long as I could without any pain relievers, but to save Kyle’s hand from being crushed any further, the nurse offered me nitrous oxide, which I happily accepted. It took the edge off, but because I had a sore throat due to a cold I seemed to be coming down with, it didn’t really work for me and only made my throat dry and awful feeling. Eventually, it didn’t seem like it was working at all, so I asked my nurse for something a bit stronger. She hooked me up with Fentanyl, a narcotic that’s apparently 100x stronger than morphine. Woo! I shall add that I have never had ny kind of narcotic or painkiller like that before – not even T3’s, so this was kind of a big deal for me. I instantly felt ridiculously light-headed and amazing, and it really took the edge of the contractions off. Kyle thought it was hilarious because if I do recall correctly, I wasn’t making much sense or completing sentences properly.

I started having the urge to push, so Dr. O’C  came down to assess me around 10:30 p.m. and said I was about 7cm dilated. He decided it was time to break my water since the baby still hadn’t quite come down into my pelvis by then, and he hoped this would encourage her to engage. The nurse also had me trying all kinds of different positions for pushing – laying down and on the toilet were the most comfortable for me, so that’s what I went with.

Let me tell you this now – pushing for child delivery is much like pushing when you have to poop. As a result – you will poop yourself. You may not realize it, but you will. Thankfully, the nurses are quick and subtle, and get it cleaned up right away. In fact, I probably wouldn’t have known it had happened if Kyle hadn’t told me. (He promised me that he would when we learned about this during our prenatal class.) So – you WILL poop yourself. Unless you give yourself an enema. Which will probably feel just as horrible, if not, more. Oh – and if it feels like your butt is inside out, it’s because it is. Hemroids are a bitch, ya’ll. Moving on …

Friday, June 29

So, I was pushing hard for a ridiculously long time (for 2 hrs+) and I was really starting to feel drained, both physically and emotionally. My body hurt, I was exhausted, and I was starting to feel like this child would never arrive. Dr. O’C came and did another assessment and while I was now fully dilated, the baby wasn’t positioned properly to fit into my pelvis. Her head was supposed to be facing my back, but she was sideways and there was no way she was going to fit. He tried turning her around, but she’d just go back to being sideways. At this point, the talks of a C-Section were starting to arise, and immediately both Kyle, my mom, and myself, were scared.

An OB-GYN (Dr. L) was called in around 2 a.m. and she did an assessment. The baby still wasn’t willing to stay turned the right way, but because there was another woman in labour at the same time whose baby was in distress, she immediately turned her attention to that woman and did an emergency C-Section. I was still okay, and so was my baby, so there was no need to “rush” my delivery.

Dr. L came back around 3 a.m. and broke down our options for delivery. Basically, she said that she could try a forceps delivery, which had a 50/50 chance of working and getting baby out. She told me that by doing this, she’s have to perform an episiotomy (I double-dog dare you to Google that if you don’t know what it is already) to make room for the forceps and the baby to prevent tearing, but I’d receive an epidural for the process. If the forceps weren’t going to work, she’d have to perform a C-Section. Our choices were to A) Try the forceps delivery and hope that it works, or B) Go right to the C-Section. Kyle asked what I wanted, but I believe my exact words were, “I just want it to be over,” so he told Dr. L to do the forceps delivery.

Immediately, the room filled with nurses and doctors, and the anaesthesiologist got my epidural going. After that, it was time to get ready for delivery. I was scared, but Dr. O’C, my nurse, and Dr. L were amazing at keeping me calm. I remember feeling Dr. L doing the episiotomy and her working the baby into the proper position for delivery. When I had a contraction, I was instructed to push with all my might and I did. A C-Section terrified myself and Kyle, so it was all I could do to stop that from happening. I was asked to stop pushing so Dr. L could adjust the forceps around to turn the baby, and then she told me to start pushing again. I remember the horrible burning feeling as the baby’s head came down and being asked to stop pushing and then start again after Dr. L made some kind of adjustment. The next thing I remember is being told by Dr. O’C to open my eyes, and I watched Dr. L lift my daughter up into the world at 4 a.m. sharp. It was all over, and I immediately felt a huge wave of relief, happiness, and pride knowing that I had done it.

Isla Emily weighed in at a whopping 7lbs, 15oz and being 20.5” long. Kyle and I are still in awe at the fact that we’re now parents. We’re adjusting quite well, and Kyle has been absolutely amazing as I heal and start to feel better. I don’t think I’ve loved him as much as I do now – it’s funny how having a family can change things in the most amazing ways. I wouldn’t change it for anything in the world.

The Birth Story, Part 1

I shall warn you now that the contents of this post may be a little TMI for some people. I figure I’d tell the story how it really happened – no sugar coating anything. I also decided to break the post into two parts since it’s a little long! Part 2 will be up tomorrow :)

Since giving birth, I have come to realize that movies, television shows and the like all put unreal expectations on what child birth is like. Of course no one actually takes these depictions seriously, but it’s nice to think that labour somewhat resembles that.

For me, it all started Monday afternoon. I wrote a little bit about it here, but for those of you who don’t feel like clicking through here’s what happened in a nutshell:

Monday, June 25:

Monday afternoon I went to my doctor (Dr. O’C – for future references) for my “due date” check up. He checked out my cervix to see if I was progressing any, and he was pleased to see that I was 100% effaced and already 2cm dilated. Dr. O’C said I could go into labour within the next 24 hours, so Kyle stayed home from work.

An hour or so later I started having intense lower back pain and so Kyle and I decided to go to the hospital around 10 pm. The nurse who assessed me figured I was about 4cm dilated so I was admitted to labour and delivery. I kept having contractions all through the night and around 6:30 a.m. (Tuesday) Dr. O’C came in to assess things himself, thinking that I was good to have my water broken to get labour really going. He said I was still only 4cm, and to go home, take a walk and rest. Drats.

So, we relaxed for the remainder of Tuesday and just tried to continue on with life. We did a grocery shop, puttered around the house and went to bed.

Wednesday, June 27:

Kyle and I went for a walk around the neighbourhood to try and jumpstart things once again. It seemed to work, because around 2 p.m. we were off to the hospital once again. I was assessed by a labour and delivery nurse and she figured I was still sitting around 4-5cms dilated. The nurses suggested we go for a walk around the hospital to try and get things moving, so we walked up huge flights of stairs and all the way down a steep hill and back. It seemed to be working, because I had to stop every 5-10 minutes for agonizing contractions. We went back to labour and delivery and I was admitted – again. We waited things out for a few hours to see if I continued to dilate, but around 6 p.m. the “head” labour & delivery nurse came in and said that she figured it would be best if I headed back home. She said that since I was still coping with the pain well, talking, and eating, that I wasn’t in “true” labour and that going home would be best. Ugh. Since I had another appointment with Dr. O’C Thursday morning, we went home. Again.

Thursday, June 28:

I had an appointment with Dr. O’C in the morning around 10 a.m. He was surprised to see me as he figured I would have given birth while he was away. (He had meetings and whatnot in Vancouver so he was gone from Tuesday morning until Wednesday evening.) He checked my cervix once again and figured I was sitting at 4-5cm still. *sigh* So, he did another agonizing sweep to try and stretch things out some more and gave Kyle orders to make me drink raspberry leaf tea and take me for a walk. And he did, after he bought me a 6-pack of cupcakes from my favourite cupcake shop. (Which reminds me – we were asked by the owner to let her know if they induced labour so she could add it to her marketing pitch, lol)

Kyle took me for a small walk around the block and the contractions continued to hurt and stop me dead in my tracks. After trying to tough it out for an hour or so, Kyle made the decision to pack me up and go to the hospital yet again. Third time’s a charm, right? So, around 2 p.m., I was back in labour and delivery at the hospital and was admitted (again). This time, it really seemed like it was “game time.”

To be continued …