Pregnancy 2.0: 38 weeks

38 weeks

Size of Baby: She’s the size of a spaghetti squash, according to my pregnancy app, although she feels as heavy as a 10-pin bowling ball sometimes. (And it probably looks like I’m trying to smuggle them under my shirt as well.)

Feeling: Hot! It’s been really hot outside recently, quite the change from the pouring rain we had early last week. I’ve been trying my best to stay inside where it’s cool and drinking lots of water. Really, I’m trying to avoid having my feet swell up like balloons like they did with Isla. Rumour has it that it’s supposed to rain again this weekend, so I’m looking forward to the break.

Also: Grumpy. My allergies are acting up like crazy and it hurts to sneeze. My stomach is still pretty raw and overall, I’m just done with being pregnant. If one more random stranger asks when I’m due, I might lose it. (Funny story – on Monday when I arrived for my prenatal appointment there was another very pregnant woman at the desk booking her next appointment and we exchanged “I feel your pain” smiles.)

Craving: Garlic scapes, which I hope to hunt down at the Farmers’ Market this morning. If you haven’t tried them before, you definitely should!

Other: I had my prenatal appointment on Monday and got my GBS test results back. I tested positive, so that means that if/when my water breaks I have to go right to the hospital and get started on antibiotics. Yaaaay :P I was negative with Isla, so this adds a new level of fun to this pregnancy.

But – since it doesn’t appear that I will be giving birth in the immediate future, I’m just trying to enjoy these last few days Isla and I have together. This morning we have plans to go to the farmers’ market and then to a toddler art class, and after that we’re swinging by the hospital so I can preregister at admissions for whenever this baby decides she wants to arrive.

My doctor is away from Monday to Thursday next week, so my next appointment with him will be next Friday, and then he’s away on the 20th & 21st. Basically, I need to either have this baby within the next couple of days or keep her in until the week she’s due if I want him here for the delivery and not whoever’s on call.

Pregnancy 2.0: 37 weeks

Pardon my sexy pajama pants. My level of caring is pretty low today ;)

Pardon my sexy pajama pants. My level of caring is pretty low today ;)

Size of Baby: Baby N is the size of a honeydew melon, which is suiting considering it feels like I’m carrying around a giant melon under my shirt.

Feeling: Raw. The skin on my stomach feels like it’s been stretched to the max, making it feel raw and uncomfortable. If I weren’t at risk for being judged and scowled at in public, I’d be walking around with my belly showing at all times.

I also had my first hormonal mental breakdown on Friday. I slept horribly the night before and just woke up in a bad mood. Campbell was acting up and not listening to me, and I just kind of lost it and started bawling. Eventually I calmed down and everything went back to normal, but man – that was unpleasant for everyone.

Craving: I satisfied my craving for frozen yogurt on the weekend, and now I just want more. At least it’s kind of healthier than ice cream? (Or is that wishful thinking?)

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Other: I had my doctor appointment Monday afternoon after it was bumped from Friday. While he was doing my measurements he had this puzzled look on his face which obviously concerned me, and then he told me that it felt like Baby was breech. After some more poking and prodding, it turns out she’s still head-down (whew), and he thinks that she very well may come early! (Of course, now that it’s been said I’m jinxed and I’ll have another overdue baby.) My next appointment is Monday next week and he said if I feel “different” he’ll do a sweep (those who have kids know what I’m talking about – those who don’t, Google “Membrane sweep” if you dare, haha). Ooooh boy, things are getting really real!

Becoming 4

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The screenshot of the countdown on my phone kind of says it all. In 30 days (maybe more, maybe less) our happy little family of three will become four.

It’s still so surreal to think that we’re going to have another little one in the house again. Even more surreal to think that everything is set along the exact same timeframe, right down to the due date. I haven’t had to do any shopping to prepare for this little one – no buying new clothes, no painting of the nursery, no nothing except for buying the “usual” stuff like diapers, bum ointment and lanolin.

While nothing much has changed as far as preparations for the baby arriving goes, that doesn’t mean none are on the way.

Isla will become a big sister. As much as she says she can’t wait to meet her baby sister (which is adorable), I’m more than certain that she doesn’t quite grasp what this really means. Part of me is worried that she’ll act out because she won’t have my undivided attention anymore. It’s been her and I for the past 3 years and now it will be her, I and Baby N. How am I going to help her with the potty when I’m strapped to the couch nursing her sister? How can I tell her that she can’t blast her music and sing at the top of her lungs when her sister is sleeping? I just don’t know sometimes …

I know I’m not the first parent out there to go from being a family of three to a family of four, but I’m certain that I’m not the first one to have apprehensions about making that “leap.” I knew I wanted more than one child, but now that it’s actually happening it’s a “Holy crap” kind of realization; very similar to the one I had when it finally settled in that Isla was due to arrive.

Despite all of these thoughts, I know that when the moment comes, when Baby N decides to make her grand entrance, everything will fall into place. Just like when Isla arrived, I’ll figure out my new role not as a new mom, but as a new mom to two. Winging it seems to be my style, so that’s probably what I’ll end up doing this time.

So, until these 30 days are up (which could be even less than that – I’ll be full term in 9 days), I’m just going to cherish the moments we have as a family of three. I want to savour every moment I have while it’s still just Isla and I at home while Kyle’s at work, and remind her that I’ll always have time for just her.

October 2012

October 2012

I know I’ll probably miss the simplicity of being a family of three, but I know that I’ll love our family of four even more. I cannot wait for this baby to arrive for so many different reasons, and I’m looking forward to all the challenges that may arise.